These words are from one of my current clients. My client has kindly given me permission to share them. They are from a very deep part. This client has shown amazing strength and courage to face the demons of the past head on. I work in a psychodynamic way which looks into how the past has shaped today, helping to make the unconscious, conscious. This client is now looking at the future with possibilities, instead of being ruled by the past.
"Today, I gently opened my eyes from the darkness,
How do I feel? I'm further back from the abyss,
I'm not gasping for air, i'm not drowning inside,
My mind is at peace, I smile, my tears all cried.
I've been through the battles, drugs, sex, bars.
Abused, hurt, ashamed, lost. They all left their scars.
Dragged about my burdens, crushing me slowly,
Guilt ridden, confused but most of all lonely.
One night it came. The voice said 'just a cut'.
It was all the sign I needed to try to escape the rut.
I'd no other way out though, I was spiralling down,
Somebody? ANYBODY! SAVE ME! I can't turn this around!
It was too much, I was so heavy, so tired,
I needed help, what I found was Inspired.
I told him my story, my secrets all unlocked,
I wasn't judged or pitied, he wasn't even shocked.
All of the troubles, all the feelings slowly teased out
Of the mess in my mind, I constantly tossed about.
I had no expectation, no goal to achieve,
But, I AM a good person deep down I believe.
The road ahead isn't easy. He understands, he knows.
He walks by your side at your lowest of lows.
Guiding and helping you to deal with your past.
finding a way to forgive it and let it go, at last.
To become who you are, you need to know where you have been.
Make peace with it, lessons learned - it wasn't a dream.
The main thing is YOU, who do you want to become?
Face everything and rise? or forget everything and run?"
Words From An Inspired Counselling Services Client.
Thank you to all my clients who allow me to go on a journey with them to some very dark places, allowing me with empathy and no judgements, to guide them towards the light again. If you feel led, leave a comment as my client will be following this post.